Sunday, December 14, 2008

yup yup

been up since bout 5a. its now 8:10a. went to sleep at bout 9p (on accident). maan ma mind been runnin rampant. um um um... i decided to listen to some music. got on i tunes and listened to brandi's new album. it was not great. i was kinda disappointed in the sound, but hey... i listened to musiq's new cd and i really like it! yup yup. aight ttyl

Friday, December 12, 2008

Behind the Music

today I learned about Marley's extramarital affairs.
lesson learned: respecting an artist for their artistry means just that.

Monday, December 1, 2008

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

i love my parents period amen.

so i've come to the conclusion that my eagerness and desire to expand my relationships beyond familial realms is solely based on my need to share the love that my parents and family have saturated, drenched, and infused me with. no lie i am overwhelmed by the love i have received in my lifetime thus far. perhaps sadly or unfortunately that is my only heart's desire -to share love. not just any love, but unconditional love, which is all i have within me. i tell you not a lie. this is my calling -to love. revelation. i believe this is what is being communicated to me, but anyhow i think my calling is being disrupted by the world i live in. or i need to challenge my thinking of whom i pour my unconditional love with. perhaps its not solely meant for man... but meant for the cause. as my dear friend has reminded me not only will i be tied to man but, before him i've been tied to the cause, that i haven't been made so readily to love. but it has now been revealed to me that this is my calling. to love, to pour the love that overflows my cup into the hands of love. i will hear your voice, who calls to my love. and i realize the seriousness of this calling, thus not one drop can be wasted. so as tempting as it may be i can only experience this sharing with whom its meant for and no one else. what i do know is that i must share this with self first. what i do know is that i can be filled with love and be completely remiss of the powers i have because of that. and that includes my power to love myself b4 anyone else. i'll let you know when my love affair can be shared beyond the walls of my extremities.
chao ;D

Tuesday, November 18, 2008


been awhile....yoooooo

Monday, November 10, 2008

Life is Beautiful

"Natasha has just come up to the window from the courtyard and opened it wider so that the air may enter more freely into my room. I can see the bright green strip of grass beneath the wall, and the clear blue sky above the wall, and sunlight everywhere. Life is beautiful. Let the future generations cleanse it of all evil, oppression and violence, and enjoy it to the full."
-Leon Trotsky

Saturday, November 8, 2008

Thursday, November 6, 2008

i reminisce

mhmm, just sitting here, right now, i just remembered when i was compared to candy flowers...whats that right. maybe i was sweet.


I'm going to read his book. I'm going to, yea, take my mind. find it, find it, find it, find it. FIND MY VOICE.

Monday, November 3, 2008

Tuesday, October 28, 2008


I told them to speak now or forever hold their peace
i was talkin to ma tears

picking up wrong numbers with the quickness cuz maybe...

i said, "tears, speak now or forever hold it."

taking long hot showers as my refuge

i asked them what shall they say of their peace?

sleeping all hours of the day and night to not feel

I urged them to utter now or never

calling others to tell me what I already know

but i couldn't cry

they chose to forever hold their peace

Sunday, October 26, 2008


Last night, I revealed what was really inside my heart. I had been trying to cover it up, as i didn't see it to yield any gain or profit of worth. But despite, my knowledge of the rocky core of my heart being insufficient to harvest good things, I needed to express it. I desperately desired to speak everything that was in me. My self-control was no longer attainable. It was just me and my will to release. I realize that was all that I can get out of what I did. I can not expect anything from anyone else but I know that I got somethings out and that's it, nothing further. Perhaps feeling better may be dependent upon the reaction to my actions, but feeling better is what I do with my actions. Mmhmm, I just...

Proverbs 27:19
Jeremiah 17:9
John 5: 18-21
2nd Corinthians 5:17
Romans 12:2
Proverbs 4:23
Philippians 4:8

-check 'em out-

i am poor in spirit, thus the kingdom is mine.

Friday, October 24, 2008

Mad dog's comin...I say mad dog's a comin....hi-freakin-larious

there's just too many elements of funny in this one clip...just too much. God bless Martin 4always

• Guy Torry as the Martin Look alike with sweatshirt that says, “Martin Payne” with an arrow pointing to his face.

Repetition in Ol’ Massa speech plus addresses the camera/ tv audience:
• Nipsy: “Mad dog’s comin’….I said mad-dog’s-a-comin’”

Fake Running Scene/ Panic Scene:
• Waitress screams: “Run for your lives”

Voice over
• Big Black Scary Man portrayed by small Gary Coleman

Stressing words:
• Martin: “Look I’m sorry bout the 5 long (break) hard years (stretch) in prison.

• Martin: You did the crime/ and I guess you had to do the damn time

• Gina: “Go ‘head baby!”

• Martin: “Bring on da noise/ bring on da noise”
• Prop action with Bottle: “I go here” again “I say I go here” and again “I flip it around, bring it back, I go here again.”

Commercial reference:
• Martin: “For all you do, this bud’s for you.”

• Mad Dog: “Yo man relax.”/ Martin: “I can’t relax, I’m tryna tell you something.”/ Mad Dog: “I sad relax.” / Martin: I’m chillin’”

Abrupt shift:
• Mad Dog and Martin bogus-fake crying, then Martin reaches out to touch him, and Mad Dog raises up his fist: Martin: “I guess you ain’t been out long enough.”

Sitcom/ Camio Reference & “Message!”:
• Mad Dog: “I’m making money the right way, I’m a florist.”/ Martin: “What you talking bout’ Mad Dog.”

Corny exist/ Theme music:
• Mad Dog exists with an applause, west coast-themed music (same as his entrance), and a raised pound/ black power fist exchange with Pam and Tommy.

Protagonist roast: Pam: “Yea, standin up to a florist really took alotta guts.”

Retraction of the “Message”:
• Mad Dog gets into a fight as he exists. Mad Dog: “Martin I need a witness.”/ Martin: “No you don’t.”

i declare to be In Love

i have a new found love 4 autumn.

i realize i got me to myself

'cept God got me

I like that



i'm in love

right now

i don't want to forget the time

so often am i remiss in my thinking

of time

i need not forget what time it is

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Nina'series -NaturalInspiration

"If I had my way, I'd've been a killer"

Four Women

Ain't Got No...I've Got Life

"To be young, gifted and black... is where it's at"

I Put A Spell On You'. Nina Simone

Be my husband



Sunday, October 19, 2008


I, I, I, I, I, I
Know how to transform
I can transform
Ill transform
I'm a transformer
I, I, I, I, I, I
Know how to transform
I can transform
Ill transform
I'm a transformer

I'm just being myself
Plus I gotta be me too
Silly of me to think that
I couldn't bring myself to be you
Ah but behold there is benevolence
Behind this but don't stare though
Be careful cause I'll kill you
With kindness
That why I'm dressed quite neatly
Cause Its easy and discreetly they seek me
And when they reach me and see me
they believe me completely
I'm a real live wire I ain't lying
If its between me and you I ain't dying
I can transform, I can transform, I can transform
Without even trying wow

I, I, I, I, I, I
Know how to transform
I can transform
Ill transform
I'm a transformer
I, I, I, I, I, I
Know how to transform
I can transform
Ill transform
I'm a transformer

Now I'm someone else
Now someone can be me too
Behold the beautiful and bold
everyday I
Wake up to be new
Oh but its simple but they still can understand why
I think I can, I think I can, I think I can or can I
I'm a microchip off the old block
You know not but I was a robot
And I sold Rock and you would get
For sho shoot with a gold glock boy I rode pac
Something that you won't see again
What the hell might as well be a friend
I can transform, I'm a transformer
No telling who I will have to be again

I, I, I, I, I, I
Know how to transform
I can transform
Ill transform
I'm a transformer
I, I, I, I, I, I
Know how to transform
I can transform
Ill transform
I'm a transformer

Saturday, October 18, 2008


hhmhm sigh
lips tight
staring at you
computer screen
waiting for you to
tell me what to do
besides what i'm doing
which is work on you
but i rather not
i rather lay
your cyberspace
and be away
from the analog
taking too long
to penetrate
i hesitate
cuz its unfamiliar
but i want it bad
feels like familia
like home
cuz home is foreign
can't seem to find a friend
'cept for you
so i'm waiting for you to hold my hand
and tell me what to do
besides what i'm doing already
let's go steady
cuz i'm steady in a daze
in a amaze
why do u torment
leaving me
on the outside
of your space
let me in to your digital underground
i'll abscond and get lost in your found
find me
i'll be here
for u
take me

Friday, October 10, 2008



Tuesday, October 7, 2008

what do u want?
whats gon save u
reaching for nuthing
when everything
is inside
but nuthings inside
i'll say
one day
u will sing a happy tune
a joyous story u will croon
skipping down the street
boppin yo head to the beat
of ur own

Thursday, October 2, 2008

wooooh again

this jus don't make no sense...thanx for puttin me on yaw!

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Tuesday, September 30, 2008


for you i will
for you i will awaken and
for you i will protect
from the dangers of truth
but for you
never will i hide
what they don't reveal in your
the fiction we are told
the lies we are sold
does not develop
into its prequel and sequel
that you now behold
in the cradle of your mind
rests unrest
for overwhelming revelation
fills your breast
and for you
i will reveal more
but not to lead to your demise
but to induce restor
be it your will
what is mine
be it your will
what i have designed
for you i will
give you ease of mind
but to ease
means to release
one from captivity
and i tell you
the price for freedom
is not tranquility
but war
for you i will
help you to know
what you are fighting for
you are fighting
I are you
in all i do
to marry you
with love
to unveil
what truly
you are made of
open unto
that you
are me
and for you
i will
stop at nothing
to give you

Sunday, September 28, 2008

who cares about sports...this is about me...hehe

i, i mean WE won... now lets dance


Don't let the pressure of wanting to get an A, make you get an F. Just do your best.


these r my notes:

The Measurement of a Queen/ King
How to Effect Your Generation

Acts 13:36
2nd Kings 24, 25: 27-30

You only have one life to live.
you're given a time, what will you do with it?

*side note: [Queendom= Queen's domain]
A queen has influence over her domain

Old testament is the New Testament concealed.
the New Testament is the Old testament Revealed

Life is not measured by duration , but by donation.

2nd Kings 24: 8 (Case study: Jehoiakim King of Judah)
Heaven's Measurement:
Measurement of duration includes:
  1. age at which you assumed your throne (18 yrs.)
  2. Stage of maintenance -how long you ruled (3 months)
Measurement of donation includes:
  1. Apprenticeship: who influenced you (His mother, Nehushta -A mother's influence is paramount)
  2. Leadership: who you influenced ("He did evil in the eyes of Lord..." scripture says he did evil in the eyes of the Lord, not in the eyes of the people...let it marinate)
King Jehoakim was not a good King, but he got all the things we ask for:
  • Got new clothes
  • Was close with King Merodach of Babylon
  • ate at the King's table
  • and had a set salary for all the days of his life
King Jehoakim, was a king of prisoners, captives, slaves.
He had limited Freedom:
  • A prisoner himself, but moved up to the highest ranks, being a king of the prisoners.
  • so he was able to rule the vicinity of the prison, but not anywhere beyond the prison gates.
  • Its like the Devil says you can go to church, but you can be a good liar -this is limited freedom, you are still captive to the Devil's rule
  • Another analogy for limited freedom: The chickens for christmas dinner get fed and fed before they are killed so they can be nice and fat for our tummies. But to that chicken, he is the King chicken getting breakfast in bed, not having to look for food but food is looking for him. To him, he's got it made...not knowing that the one who is feeding him, is the one who will kill him. Meanwhile the chicken who has to look for her own food, and is skinny is the one that is truly free.
The purpose of a queen is to protect her territory. The prison is not the territory of a queen.
  • The devil will feed you enough and clothe you enough to make you forget your destiny.
God said make me rich. (How can you make God rich?) Give unto me what is mine. What is the Lord's? Not the dollar bill, with the image of a dead prez, but Her children, with the image of God on us. We were made in His image, all children.

The greatest lie the devil told God's children, was that He would make us Kings and Queens of Prisoners.

*side not: [A friend loves you the way you are. A mentor loves you too much to leave you the way you are]

You Queendom is not church, it is anywhere you influence.
God will not measure a church by how many it is seating, but by how many it is reaching.

Help us not to be blinded by the comfort and convenience of the devil.

............thats all i had was way more effective being in the church. but i still wanted to pass the message along. i was doing a lot of mmmhming was just good.

how was ur evening?

oh boy
i just had a bad dream. God forbid it! but I woke up to a beautiful text. God bless it. mmhm what next? Praise the Lord

what was before... mhhmm i ate alone at the Bombay Indian Restaurant on campus. It was super fulfilling. I couldn't ask for more or less. As I was eating I was accompanied via a phone conversation until my phone lost juice and died, then I was accompanied by my thoughts, then a song along the walk home. then i resorted to my thoughts again, which turned into a gchat convo, which turned into me watching Martin on this here blog page. then sleep, dream, wake, text, blogging.

and thats how it went.

how was ur evening?

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

akua's study -quest of mind, heart, inquiry, soul, inspiration -works cited (i really wish i could see the whole thing-this is one of my favorites) (ol skool- interesting to assess) (man of repetition -spoke OWT...woooh....o boy) (oooh liberation... cry for freedom)

Wednesday, September 17, 2008


u ever wanna sit back and watch life on tv
but the kinda life w/ no cameras
but ur watchin
maybe like God
but without the responsibility of God, like answering prayers, showing mercy, forgiveness, etc.
so neway u watch and u decide to jump in when ur ready
kinda like double dutch
when u feel like u've seen enuff
and u wanna play the game now
and u know exactly what role u wanna play too
u know where u wanna get in
u see where u fit in
and u play
at ur own risk tho....
but i wonder
if u knew what was to come
would u still wanna play
if u knew what life was all about
would u play
u saw all the successes
all the sufferings
all the goods
alll the evils
all the opportunities
all the limitations
would u play

i wonder what i was designed to do
to be
to know
to say
how to do what i am designed to do
i wish i could sit and watch
and jump in when i'm ready
but we're kinda thrown in
so u best be ready
ur ready or not
here we come

we came
did we see
did we conquer?

Tuesday, September 9, 2008


the world's smilin
and i say i smile back at u
the sun's shinin
and i say
this black star's shinin too
and what bout u
in yo face if i smiled what would u do
if smilin back is what you choose
or having a str8t face to keep it cool
or givin me a smirk w/ one eyebrow raised playin it smoove
or payin me no neva mind tryna play me for a fool
or scolding me w/ a grim face thinking u ebenezer scrooge
no matta what you do
do you and do it to the full
ima do me and smile till i infect the rest
w/ bless
infect the rest w/ love
letting the God inside shine
inside me
i walk w/ ma head high
cuz joy's inside me
seekin nuttin but positivity
but regardless of what i recieve
i encourage u to do u
cuz ima do me

Monday, September 8, 2008

Heart needs a change of clothes

so....i be good sometimes. i mean i be good. u know feeling good. feeling like i have command over a situation. feel like i can keep it movin in a forward motion. feelin comfortable in ma skin. feelin good. u know. then somedays, i jus feel like the wind be blowing me every which-a-way and my command over the winds get blown away as well. jus uncertain, a bit lost, a bit scared. then i get these sober moments when i know the devil jus is on his A-game. i mean lying like he ain't neva lied b4 everytime. just a gunnin for me. and i realize that i need my God to be in command all the time, and i realize Her presence on the scene is dependent upon me. dependent upon ma faith and love and willingness to invite Him into my heart -my center that drives my feelings which i heavily act upon. and man, i just know that my heart needs a change of clothes, some new shoes, jus need to be made over.
take my heart and mold it to liken yours, Oh Lord

Friday, September 5, 2008

jangydangle to siryptinum (satire of man)

J: bla bla bla u know
feelings schmeelings u know
'cept nuttin's grey
it jus
and then you move on

S: i know
i know...........

J: all dat
dwelling in the past
is bull
and it ain't for winners
everybody else is doin it
so y the hell can't u
why the hell won't u

S: right??
i know
i know.....

J: the game ain't for
inexperienced girls
wet behind they ears

S: i know
i know.....

J: so u betta grow
some balls and be a man
cuz this is their world
and if you wanna know
how to live in this world
u best watch them
be like them
know their
know their
know their song
get in their head

S: right?
i know
i know........

J: see,
they're focused
they know how to
attend to what they NEED
to attend to.
they know how to move the fuck on
they know how to compartmentalize
emotion and physical
they r logical
they do for self
they dominate the world
and u follow
no matter how twisted and unaccomodating a situation is
u accomodate
now who's fault is that?
its a dog-eat-dog world we live in
u sittin dere callin them a dog
but they got the cats in order
too bad for a sista like u
hopefully you'll wake up soon

S: i know
i know.........

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

as i eat a bagel w/ a cluttered mind

each time i express
each time i refrain
losing myself as i repress
i pray we all remain

all the me's that
from time to time get silenced
i sit, sitting, sat
slumped in my chair reminiscent

conversing, politicking now
about how to get better with God
with each word about
the ways to quicken my spirit, i give a head nod

prayer prayer,
fulfilling God's pleasure
needing to be reading scripture
the manual of Emmanuel

for He is with me
and i Know it
surrounding but I can't see
and sometimes my feelings don't show it

so day to day
i pray to remember to invite You into my heart
renew, new page
get a chance at a new start

and i'm thankful
always thankful
tho hopeless and feeling doubtful
at times
i pray to never forget You

for You and only You know what's best
so You and only You
I'll let near my breast
accurately beneath my chest
secure in my valentine vest

i digress

i feel better already
i'm either ready or deady
do or die they say
do then die he said
do it then make your bed
so no regret

my destiny

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

so in about 15 hours I will officially be an RA. it!! don't u? wanna be ma resident........

lisa from save by the bell/ david allen grier/ billy dee williams

"what's missing from ch blank blank ch.....u r" love it!!

TV IS SOOO NOT REAL LIFE....oooh but if it were.......

"damn Michael you make me wanna go...can i go?" ha!!

it's cheaper to keep her/ cut the corna

oh Jesus. ah fo dis one...i just laffed to tears

my favorite -all time favorite show eva and remedy for life's ills :)

maaan yoo...and part 3 is off off off the chainS. i can't even laff when i watch this show...i just scream...ahhahh...good stuff

Oh Gina hooked this one up..standin O performance.... "u got somebody that got u"

Monday, August 11, 2008

knowing * FEELING

life may not be hard but it feels like it. the conflicting entities of flesh and spirit. the dichotomy of what you feel and what you know. why it is innate to want what can self destruct. why? i sit. i think, to try to not think - things to not think, and thus i think. i wish knowing better can be more powerful than feeling illogically. i try to convince myself that what i know will serve me well than the contradicting feelings of my flesh. some may say this criticizing-self approach is not the way but it is what i feel.

Friday, August 8, 2008

the TRUTH revealed

flavorful favorites fancy farting freely for fun
and boy oh boy am i havin' fun!

Thursday, August 7, 2008


can we dance like nobodees A watchin'

Monday, August 4, 2008

preposition for the day: OVER

its over
been over
i'm over it
tho i reminisce over and over
wondering what has come over me
i hit myself over the head
i'll have my eggs over easy

this pensive state is quite overdue
i must keep my head over water
and leap over the obstacles in ma way
led by God's light shining over me

i heard over conversation
and overheard
MOVE ON don't move over
you're no pushover
but with emotion my cup runneth over
now with logic shall i get over this
but sincere i'm over it
for now...............................................
for tomorrow

Sunday, August 3, 2008

green eyed bag lady

hold yo glasses to the sky
clink clink
its a celebration
neva felt a feeling so sweet
i hum with delight
at the piercing sound of the knife
i scream
with relief


do it again and again

deeper and deeper
are my wounds

sweeter and sweeter
is my tongue

i burst into tears

i smile with jubilee

they neva told me how sweet it would be

they neva told how physically real
heartbreak feels, how suitable the word
is to describe joyful pain

i carry my bags tripping over myself

i hold my head up high

now realizing who the second dress is for

the more the merrier tocelebrate
filled with glasses


with bleeding hearts
i rejoice in pain

cuz its a motha motha mo tha............. celebration

and baby, yea baby, my lover, my one who holds a special place in my heart, my fiya starta, my one of the sun, my first......everything, everything, everything, everything

i thank you!

Thursday, July 31, 2008

eFFin' bEAutiful!!

industry perfect people

each word leads to a sweet panty-droppin-piano-love-makin session
w/ jon mclaughlin.
asomdwoee ~~~~coolness in my ears........................

Sunday, July 27, 2008


4.any mixture, esp. of unrelated objects, subjects, etc.
  • hhaaahhhhh (just breathe)
  • we finally met again
  • at peace but wanting
  • wanting what u can't have or don't need is a b*#ch
  • discipline is no joke
  • heeding to a higher power/ obeying the truth is salvation
  • salvation is relief is peace
  • my family are the greatest sugar daddies i've ever had
  • friends, true friends are blessings. (sing along) how many of us have them...friends
  • belief creates life
  • perhaps these things are all related after all................

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

renew -new direction new beginnings

triumph is soo sweet
slowly but surely
i am a movin
with the goodness and kindness
of loved ones puttin some good, nice,
hot, scorchin'
under ma ass
i am a movin
getting behind the steerin wheel
and sittin in the driver's seat of

Monday, July 21, 2008





miss----- -----u

miss: to regret the absence or loss of
miss: to fail to perceive or understand

i have no regrets
but i miss you
and I hope
to not

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

The Whodini Philosophy -one you should follow

How many of us have them?
Ones we can depend on
How many of us have them?
Before we go any further, lets be Friends*

Is a word we use everyday
Most the time we use it in the wrong way
Now you can look the word up, again and again
But the dictionary doesnt know the meaning of friends

And if you ask me, you know, I couldnt be much help
Because A friend is somebody you judge for yourself
Some are ok, and they treat you real cool
But some mistake kindness for bein a fool

We like to be with some, because they're funny
Others come around when they need some money
Some you grew up with, around the way
And you're still real close too this very day

Homeboys through the Summer, Winter, Spring and Fall
And then there's some we wish we never knew at all
And this list goes on, again and again
But these are the people that we call friends

When we first went out together, we barely knew each other We had no intentions, on becoming lovers But in no time at all, you became my girl Me and you, one on one, against the world
Talkin on the telephone for hours at a time
Or else I was at your house, or you was at mine Then came the arguements and all kinds of problems Besides making love, we had nothing in common It couldnt last long because it started out strong But I guess we went about the whole thing wrong Cause out of nowhere it just came to an end Because we became lovers before we were friends
(YEEESSSSSS -this was b4 my time 1984, that's ma excuse for missin the message....haha)

How many of us have them?
Ones we can depend on
How many of us have them?
Before we go any further, let's be

You say you and your girlfriend were so tight
You took her out with you and your guy one night
She even had a set of keys to your home
And you shared mostly everything you owned

But as she shook your hand, she stole your man
And it was done so swift, it had to be a plan
Couldn't trust her with cheese, let alone your keys
With friends like that you dont need enemies

You wonder how long it was all going on
And your still not sure if your man is gone
You say, well if she took him he was never mine
But deep inside you know thats just another lie

And now you're kinda cold to the people you meet
Cause of something that was done to you by some creep
But nevertheless, I'll say it again
That these are the people that we call friends

How many of us have them?
Before we go any further, lets be

How many of us have them?
One's we can depend on
How many of us have them?
Before we go any further, lets be

How many of us have them?
One's we can depend on
How many of us have them?
Before we go any further, lets be

Monday, July 14, 2008

I love my crazy friends

Man, woman, i tell ya. If there's one thing i can testify without a shadow of a doubt, it is that God has put some memorable people in my life. He has given me relationships so noteworthy, I just proclaim the blessings. He's shown me the dynamic form of relationships. On one hand i've learned that relationships are necessary for living and on the other hand i've learned that no relationship between "man" comes before one's relationship with God. mmhmm. I've learned to put myself first, but to also put others before me. Or better said, I've learned that i must love myself, but I must also love others more than myself. mmmhm. Alls I know is I've engaged in relationships heaven sent: My folks, my syblings, my friends, and other(s). It is not man that you have faith in, but God. Thankful to God, there are people in my life that I can trust. I'm jus flowin rite now, but I was inspired to write as i chatted with a dear friend of mine. She's such a blessing. She is amidst all the blessings and angels I have recieved. I mean I'm just sheltered by goodness. Sometimes others weed themselves once they are uprooted I realize what they were good for and thus they are nothing but goodness as well. May God bless every being in my life, everything that will ever change, impact, and elevate me.

Sunday, July 13, 2008

that L action

the first time. misunderstanding. miseducation. anger and love. what do we know of love. if we know anything at all. at times i want to hold on to my angry hands and loathing mind. at times like now and yesterday and the day before i want nothing more than to love. to infect with divine love. for self and even more for him, for others as He has commanded me to do. But this world makes it just a tad hard to love your enemies, to love those that don't love u in return, or that don't love you at the level and/or beyond the love you have for them. perhaps its not the world but simply not being loved back that doesn't make it easy. and furthermore it is not easy because we don't have love for ourselves or know the love of God that is meant for us, so without the love of others we know not of love at all. so what do we know of love if we don't know God. and thus the wretched world as we know it lives on. only if you'd understand me , we could make babies under the sun.

Friday, July 11, 2008

Aborofo no

Aborofo no betumi a nnipa papa. They can be good I'm sure i've met some good ones in the past but perhaps not as memorable as the one i know now. He's extra cool. Nice guy. He's my classmate in my Twi class. Boroni learnin twi. Nice ain't No, but its just all been a good experience thus far. I'm not sure if i have laughed or smiled consistantly for a long period of time in my life before. Times like this do not come often or ever 4 me, so i'm taking it as it has come. Me da awurade ase daaa :)