Tuesday, October 28, 2008


I told them to speak now or forever hold their peace
i was talkin to ma tears

picking up wrong numbers with the quickness cuz maybe...

i said, "tears, speak now or forever hold it."

taking long hot showers as my refuge

i asked them what shall they say of their peace?

sleeping all hours of the day and night to not feel

I urged them to utter now or never

calling others to tell me what I already know

but i couldn't cry

they chose to forever hold their peace

Sunday, October 26, 2008


Last night, I revealed what was really inside my heart. I had been trying to cover it up, as i didn't see it to yield any gain or profit of worth. But despite, my knowledge of the rocky core of my heart being insufficient to harvest good things, I needed to express it. I desperately desired to speak everything that was in me. My self-control was no longer attainable. It was just me and my will to release. I realize that was all that I can get out of what I did. I can not expect anything from anyone else but I know that I got somethings out and that's it, nothing further. Perhaps feeling better may be dependent upon the reaction to my actions, but feeling better is what I do with my actions. Mmhmm, I just...

Proverbs 27:19
Jeremiah 17:9
John 5: 18-21
2nd Corinthians 5:17
Romans 12:2
Proverbs 4:23
Philippians 4:8

-check 'em out-

i am poor in spirit, thus the kingdom is mine.

Friday, October 24, 2008

Mad dog's comin...I say mad dog's a comin....hi-freakin-larious

there's just too many elements of funny in this one clip...just too much. God bless Martin 4always

• Guy Torry as the Martin Look alike with sweatshirt that says, “Martin Payne” with an arrow pointing to his face.

Repetition in Ol’ Massa speech plus addresses the camera/ tv audience:
• Nipsy: “Mad dog’s comin’….I said mad-dog’s-a-comin’”

Fake Running Scene/ Panic Scene:
• Waitress screams: “Run for your lives”

Voice over
• Big Black Scary Man portrayed by small Gary Coleman

Stressing words:
• Martin: “Look I’m sorry bout the 5 long (break) hard years (stretch) in prison.

• Martin: You did the crime/ and I guess you had to do the damn time

• Gina: “Go ‘head baby!”

• Martin: “Bring on da noise/ bring on da noise”
• Prop action with Bottle: “I go here” again “I say I go here” and again “I flip it around, bring it back, I go here again.”

Commercial reference:
• Martin: “For all you do, this bud’s for you.”

• Mad Dog: “Yo man relax.”/ Martin: “I can’t relax, I’m tryna tell you something.”/ Mad Dog: “I sad relax.” / Martin: I’m chillin’”

Abrupt shift:
• Mad Dog and Martin bogus-fake crying, then Martin reaches out to touch him, and Mad Dog raises up his fist: Martin: “I guess you ain’t been out long enough.”

Sitcom/ Camio Reference & “Message!”:
• Mad Dog: “I’m making money the right way, I’m a florist.”/ Martin: “What you talking bout’ Mad Dog.”

Corny exist/ Theme music:
• Mad Dog exists with an applause, west coast-themed music (same as his entrance), and a raised pound/ black power fist exchange with Pam and Tommy.

Protagonist roast: Pam: “Yea, standin up to a florist really took alotta guts.”

Retraction of the “Message”:
• Mad Dog gets into a fight as he exists. Mad Dog: “Martin I need a witness.”/ Martin: “No you don’t.”

i declare to be In Love

i have a new found love 4 autumn.

i realize i got me to myself

'cept God got me

I like that



i'm in love

right now

i don't want to forget the time

so often am i remiss in my thinking

of time

i need not forget what time it is

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Nina'series -NaturalInspiration

"If I had my way, I'd've been a killer"

Four Women

Ain't Got No...I've Got Life

"To be young, gifted and black... is where it's at"

I Put A Spell On You'. Nina Simone

Be my husband



Sunday, October 19, 2008


I, I, I, I, I, I
Know how to transform
I can transform
Ill transform
I'm a transformer
I, I, I, I, I, I
Know how to transform
I can transform
Ill transform
I'm a transformer

I'm just being myself
Plus I gotta be me too
Silly of me to think that
I couldn't bring myself to be you
Ah but behold there is benevolence
Behind this but don't stare though
Be careful cause I'll kill you
With kindness
That why I'm dressed quite neatly
Cause Its easy and discreetly they seek me
And when they reach me and see me
they believe me completely
I'm a real live wire I ain't lying
If its between me and you I ain't dying
I can transform, I can transform, I can transform
Without even trying wow

I, I, I, I, I, I
Know how to transform
I can transform
Ill transform
I'm a transformer
I, I, I, I, I, I
Know how to transform
I can transform
Ill transform
I'm a transformer

Now I'm someone else
Now someone can be me too
Behold the beautiful and bold
everyday I
Wake up to be new
Oh but its simple but they still can understand why
I think I can, I think I can, I think I can or can I
I'm a microchip off the old block
You know not but I was a robot
And I sold Rock and you would get
For sho shoot with a gold glock boy I rode pac
Something that you won't see again
What the hell might as well be a friend
I can transform, I'm a transformer
No telling who I will have to be again

I, I, I, I, I, I
Know how to transform
I can transform
Ill transform
I'm a transformer
I, I, I, I, I, I
Know how to transform
I can transform
Ill transform
I'm a transformer

Saturday, October 18, 2008


hhmhm sigh
lips tight
staring at you
computer screen
waiting for you to
tell me what to do
besides what i'm doing
which is work on you
but i rather not
i rather lay
your cyberspace
and be away
from the analog
taking too long
to penetrate
i hesitate
cuz its unfamiliar
but i want it bad
feels like familia
like home
cuz home is foreign
can't seem to find a friend
'cept for you
so i'm waiting for you to hold my hand
and tell me what to do
besides what i'm doing already
let's go steady
cuz i'm steady in a daze
in a amaze
why do u torment
leaving me
on the outside
of your space
let me in to your digital underground
i'll abscond and get lost in your found
find me
i'll be here
for u
take me

Friday, October 10, 2008



Tuesday, October 7, 2008

what do u want?
whats gon save u
reaching for nuthing
when everything
is inside
but nuthings inside
i'll say
one day
u will sing a happy tune
a joyous story u will croon
skipping down the street
boppin yo head to the beat
of ur own

Thursday, October 2, 2008

wooooh again

this jus don't make no sense...thanx for puttin me on yaw!

Wednesday, October 1, 2008